Well, the car is not painted and the whole girl thing mentioned above went badly enough that I am in a deep depression, so I have no idea when I am going to paint it now. I can barely get out of bed. If I wasn't 34 without ever having had someone I liked like me back I probably wouldn't be so sad. Unfortunately, every time I become happy and have hope about this sort of thing, the other person never likes me that way in the end and it ends up in a devastating depression that lasts for a few years. I told myself it would not work out the whole time, but we hung out a few times and I really got to like her a lot. We had a lot in common except for age. I guess she's like every other girl though- she sees me as a friend and that's all. She told me she had a boyfriend (which developed after we started hanging out together) when we were going to a car show together. I can't help the way my heart works. Plus, at my age it is very difficult to start dating for the first time when you are not looking to settle down yet. I knew I never should have started talking to her again. I knew I would get VERY hurt in the end. Now I have taken to drinking, I can barely eat and I just lay in bed all day. This is the worst pain in the world.